You can't count on anything...

I have been going through some serious crap here lately. Which is why i haven't written a blog in a long time. My sister erica came to visit for my sister hilliarys wedding. That was fun but i didnt have much time to write then. My sister hilliary is now borrowing my laptop so i barely ever have time on it now. I can only have it for certain periods of time when she doesnt need it for homework. I also lost my "best friend" this past month.

My alleged best friend did not die, that would be too easy. He chose to be a complete jerk to me for the past 3 almost 4 years and I decided that we should no longer be friends. So now he is trying to make my life a living hell. He has been making comments about my past best friend that are completely inappropriate and hurtful. He also has been calling me terrible names lately as well. I dont know what i did to him but he is making threats on my life now.

I suppose some people never grow up.

Jacob and I are having a few issues here lately. We are having communication problems as well as clingy-ness issues. I don't know how many times i have to ask for space before I get it but let me tell you it takes quite a while. Dont get me wrong I am totally grateful to have him in my life and im so blessed that he is nothing like Vance but I just wish he'd respect my space a little more. I love him with all of my heart but I need my time too. Its been super rough lately because for some reason I feel that he is being dishonest with me about some things. I cant quite put my finger on what or why he is lying to me but its bothering me. I can tell when someone is being dishonest so Im having a hard time with figuring this one out. I just wish he wouldnt lie to me at all.

Anywho...thats basically all i have to say for right now...my sister needs my computer now. Ill write more when i can.

Love,
Britt

Oh for the love of Pizza and Pantyliners....

So i'm the grouchiest girl alive today...Its the last day that Aunt Flow is here..if you catch my drift...I always get irritable during this day...not sure why but i do. Its my down fall i guess you could say. Most days of Aunt Flows visit i want chocolate, but not today..oh nooooo.. Pizza is my drug of choice..nothing but pizza and when i dont have any pizza...im a big giant grouch..My boyfriend is hating his life today.

I hate that girls have to go through close to a week of this crap and get flack from the guys for it..They say "oh its just your horomones honey"...ill show you horomones...back off my chocolate bub...this aint the day to mess with me...When im in a bad mood even if its not that time of the month they ask...are you on your period? like thats the only reason i could ever be in a bad mood..it kinda makes me wonder if I could get a lighter sentence for choking my boyfriend if it was for PMS..hmmm lol:]

a few new things...a few old things...

So yesterday was a fantastic day...well last night really..I went to the greyhound bus station with my best friend toby and picked up the love of my life...It has been amazing so far...with each kiss and each conversation i realize more and more that he is the one I am suposed to be with...*sigh* I love spending time with him...having him hold me at night is amazing...ive never felt so safe...I will be adding more about us in later posts but today is kind of a rough day..

See its a rough day...Its October 9th..My best friend who died's birthday..His name was Timmy..He was fucking amazing...He never met a stranger and was by far the sweetest boy i had ever met...He would have been 21 today but sadly he'll be 18 forever...Jacob knows he will always be #2 in my heart because of him...I cant tell you how amazing he was in a blog...you would have to just know him...I wish everyone could have known him.

I have a hard time every year at this time and during his death time...Everyday is hard but its just worse around these dates...I dont cope very well apparently...I have been getting better by the year though...In january it will be 3 years that he's been gone...It gets a little better each day but it still pretty much sucks..

Anyway Happy 21st Birthday Timmy...I love you so much...Thanks for helping God pick Jacob for me...I know you had a hand in that..His personality is basically yours anyway..I miss you...everyday...i miss you..

an introduction...

Hey im brittany...everyone calls me britt..I guess you're readin this out of pure boredom...i dont blame you...I get bored more than anyone i know...My sister has 2 blogs on this...one personal one and one with her husband...shes pretty much amazing...hell they both are...i love them to pieces...You dont know me but through this blog you will get to know me..here are a few things to help you catch up...now dont get overwhelmed. I know its a lot to take it..just bare with me.

I am the youngest of 3 girls. Im 22 years old. I have been through a great deal of stuff even though im pretty young. My best friend died in 2006 and thats pretty much when i changed who i was. I didnt do it on purpose but i guess when you go through something that tragic you become a lot different then you would have been otherwise.

I have THE WORST luck with boys for the most part. I started dating a guy named Nick right after my bf died. BIG mistake HUGE mistake...I wish i could take that back for sure!! Anyway after he ripped my heart out we became best friends.. I know what you are thinking..."what the hell is your problem?" well thats a good question. If i knew..i wouldnt have dated him a second time...yes you read write i dated him again..its been tough after the second time to remain friends but we are still trying.

I started dating a new guy on August 23rd. His name is Jacob and he's literally the most amazing man i have ever met. He seriously saved me..he took my heart and fixed all of the little breaks. I have been extremely happy since i met him. I could go on and on and on about him. which i think i will on the next entry considering i will be with him tomorrow...YAY!! Ill keep you updated...oh and by the way IM GOING TO BE AN AUNT !! My sister Hilliary is expecting...woop woop!!